It’s all about the flavour of life.
First of all - this week’s colour is red. It’s a Guess watch case, because that’s how I roll even though I’m broke 99% of the time. All say yay for company perks.
I’ve been reading lots of great blog entries all over the blogosphere lately. Well, actually always but now I want to do an entry about these entries and I think I should mention this before I go on. I read Lumpy’s entry on her being an emotional thinker and how she’s learned so much from logical thinkers this morning. Go read her post, and you’ll see what I’m getting at. And I also think you all should have her on your blogroll, she’s wickedly funny and a great writer.
My point is I envy people that know themselves so well. I really wish that I could analyze my thoughts and feelings, but I can’t. In short, I’m confused. I can’t say that vanilla ice cream is my favourite because it may be my favourite now, but next week I’d totally be munching down on Woolworths’ Tin Roof ice cream.
I’m also great at being objective, when looking at someone else’s life, and (I think) I give great advise and yet when it comes to my life. I just go with it and see where my emotions take me. And I always have the best intentions you know, be kind. Smile at someone. Leave them with kind words because you never know what impact you might have in their life. Then again, do I make any impact? Does my tiny act of kindness make any difference at all? I hope so. Like Lumpy, I am an emotional thinker. And I haven’t learnt the art of looking at my life objectively yet. In one of my previous entries I describe my emotions, I compare it to a whirlpool of colours, subject to change any time. I won’t feel the same about something next week, maybe I will. I was so set against moving in with J. I was so afraid and yet, here I am and I’ve settled into my routine.
Gah. Just writing this entry is hard. I don’t KNOW myself that well, although reading this one would think I do. That also makes me contradict myself in many ways. Bleh. Is this normal? Am I supposed to be so confused about being confused? I just want to be a good person.
I may have to go and get me some strawberry ice cream. No wait…vanilla?
PS This is so going to be one of those posts I wish I deleted.
UPDATE I’m one of the winners in Gracey’s contest! Now this is the way to start a Monday!
Don’t feel too bad love. I don’t think anyone knows themselves THAT well either. Some people just fake it better than some others. I mean, I make a hell lot of mistakes as I go along my life too, and yea, even though they always say “learn from your mistakes”, I usually don’t. Heh. xP As much as I want to believe that I do, I just don’t. Hm. Hang on a sec, I don’t see the relevance anymore. Anyway! Lol. Yum… ice cream! =D Cookies and cream plz. xP
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Thanks for your comment, I feel better knowing I’m not the only one. Some people just seem to have it all figured out don’t they?
I don’t learn from my mistakes either Eva, so don’t feel too left out.
This is pretty clever of you, writing this entry as though you were describing yourself, when in fact you were writing about me! LMAO
Being confused is for sure very hard on us and keeps our minds in constant turmoil. Meh
But never doubt that you are a good person, Sweet Pea. You are the best!! smooch
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Thanks for always having a kind word, *smooches*
Yeah YC, we’re emotional thinkers. Definitely.
Woah, girl! You’re *supposed* to not know who you are yet. I mean, you’re barely in your 20s. It’s good that you have room for growth (emotionally). I’m 33 and there are times I’m still confused with my life. So, take a deep breath and relax. Your life is your journey and it’s waiting for you to take the ride!!
p.s.- I’d go with vanilla. Yum!
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Thanks Michele, I feel *so* much better knowing I’m not alone. And I had strawberry and vanilla flav for dessert last night.
Totally normal to be confused about being confused. I always wonder where I’m supposed to be and if I’m missing out on something better. I think that’s what your 20’s is all about. Hopefully by the time we’re 40 we’ll have something figured out
Yea! You’re a winner!!! woo-hoo!!!
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OMG Ria thanks so much…I’m so afraid that there’s something better out there and I’m missing out! Maybe by the time I’m 40…I’ll have the ice cream thing down. Woo-hoo!!
So I had this thought when I was in my early 20s that I should have SOME idea of what I was doing. I mean, some people seem to have it all together, right?? So I ask my mom, who’s in her mid 50s, “Will I EVER feel like I’m a grown-up?” She laughed and said, “Honey, I STILL don’t feel like a grown-up!” There you have it.
There are those who come up with a hardcore plan for life and a way to achieve their goals. At the same time, there is nothing wrong with not having a concrete plan for life. Some of us are meant to float through life. And as long as your aim is to be kind and spread kindness, I think you’ll do just fine.
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Hi Blue, thanks for your great comment!! I feel better knowing I’m not alone in feeling this way as everyone around me seems to have such a solid plan for their life.
Everyone is confused about their lives. If we all knew who we were ALL THE TIME, wouldn’t that be boring?? I like to surprise myself sometimes!
But I agree with what you said. As long as you live your life and try to be a good person, that’s all you can aim for I think.
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Thanks for your comment!
Angela, that’s great. But the not so nice surprises I don’t really like.
OMG, I’m 38 and figuring out myself in my 20’s and up until now, I was getting more than one lesson a day! I was clueless. You are way ahead of the game and btw, you do make a difference. Kindness, thoughtfulness, etc. are things that make this world go ’round. Thanks for mentioning me, I’m humbled. Awww, you are so sweet! We all have to figure out who we are, and I know for a fact, I will still be wondering when I’m 100 (if I’m lucky enough to be around that long)…. Everyday life throws something new at me. I think the key is, if you can learn from it… and you are! I’m working on getting your box together today- I am also broke, so in reading your “about” me page, I do have a few things of my own I thought you would love. So, I’m passing them onto you. They have been well loved and cared for so don’t worry, I’m not going to send you a box o’ junk (ha! ha! wouldn’t that suck?). Also, a few little odds and ends that I’ve picked up. You deserve them. It’s people like you that make this blog experience worth while! My goal is to even get to the post office today
Have a great Monday and congrats on winning Gracey’s contest! WAY TO GO!
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I’m glad and proud to have you on my blogroll!!
I can’t wait to get the parcel Lumpy! I am so excited!! Even if it was junk (which I know it isn’t) one woman’s junk is another’s treasure!!
Thanks also for your comment, all I can do is learn every day and keep on trying to be a good person.
i am humbled knowing i am a never-ending work in progress. i pick up lessons along the way and look up to people who were not afraid to fail and brave enough to pick up themselves after. i can only wish i can do as much.
you don’t have to conform with someone else’s style, because you are one unique person, and that makes you special! what wisdom you’ve got there from someone so young!
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Hi Odette! Thank you for your great comment. I like the idea that I am a work in progress, so I’m going to adopt that attitude.
Its hard to be objective when you examine yourself. What do other people say about you?
I think who a person is, is defined by their actions. Not by who they think they are but what they actually do. So if you wonder if you are analytical or what not, think about what you have done to solve problems. What tactics you used. Your grades in math class…etc.
I get most of who I am from feedback I receive.
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I don’t really ask people about myself so I have no idea. I get that I’m nice a lot of the time, and that I’m also a little opinionated but that can’t be helped. My grades in Math was HORRIBLE.
Thanks for your comment Matt!
Don’t worry, I don’t think many people know themselves that well. I definitely don’t. I’m just like you.. confused about being confused. But then, hey, you now that, you read my blog!!
P.S. It’s vanilla ice cream all the way!
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Yeah Claire, we’re peas in a pod!!
I haven’t seen 100 girls. That would be one to look into. I do like Jonthan Tucker. He was amazing in Black Donnelly, this very short lived TV series about the “irish” mob in NY. I know he was in the TX chainsaw movie and Cherry Crush..yeah, pleanty of flavor there..hehe…
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I haven’t seen Black Donnelly though. Not even sure if it aires here. He was in Sleepers too, with Brad Pitt. That was a great movie albeit a little disturbing.
You should see it. I love it!!
Like anything you continue to learn about yourself all the way through life. I’m more of a logical thinker and historically was uncomfortable with excess emotion. Can’t get away from it though, so when I end up in that situation I step back and let it roll, once it has run it’s course continue on my way. Fundamentally you are who you are and I’m only getting comfortable in my own skin at 35. Not to say I don’t suffer from confusion, I do, but I just get on with it.
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See, sometimes I wish I was like that. I get caught up in the storm without warning and I just hope that nothing gets damaged in the process. Thanks for your comment.
I mailed it. I’m shocked myself. I’m a major procrastinator and yet, somehow, I did it f-a-s-t. I need to take more vacation time
5-10 business days! Much Love,
The also confused Anne (Lumpy)
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You’re great Anne!
YIPPEE!!! From the confused Nicole. (sleepyjane)
Guess what!
It’s sarah.
I made a new wordpress.
I want to blog like you lol.
I will read your entry after
I bake this cake!
Love,
SMC.
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I found you Sarah!! *smooches*
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